For those who know me, even a little, you would know that I rarely have reasons for doing things. My reasons extend to 'because I want to'. Not much has changed in that direction. However, something recently really got me thinking about that precise motive.
I was at home recently; out of that time when I was actually at home, I needed to distract my dog enough so he could stop barking for 5 mins straight as I was nearing my limit to start screaming at him. The only time anyone screams in my house is at my dog, we are a fairly non expressive lot with enough things to keep us busy and giving the occasional 'hmmm, wassup?' to each other every now and then. It was then that I switched on the television and on came 'Sach ka Samna'. I decided to watch it for a while mainly ‘cos I like the actor and ofcourse watching strangers make a fool of themselves is a little amusing. While I watched someone bare their soul and then lose a lot of money at a lie which they insisted was the truth, there popped a question in my head. How do you really know what is true?
Have you ever questioned yourself on what isn’t even real? Have you ever woken up with a feeling that what you were dreaming of was the truth? Have you ever questioned why you dreamt such a thing? It is scarier how some truths can feel real to you yet a polygraph test may disagree. Now why would this happen? Is the answer as simple as the fact that the subconscious truth overrides the conscious truth and if so then why is the former more important than the latter. And if that were true, the choice you made that became your reality isn’t even important or acknowledged by your subconscious. Thereby, you choice is rejected and nullified by your subconscious and the polygraph test. Have you ever wanted something and made the choice not to have it? The next step is usually to tell yourself and others that you didn’t want it, your sub conscious disagrees. And you will lose that money in the television show. Rare is the breed whose head and heart is in the same place, and difficult is their path. I should know.
My cause is the search of non compromise. If I think it, I want it. The problem is never the wanting, it is the thinking. Acts are easier to change; thoughts can ruin your world. What is your choice of poison - Yield to all temptations or not have any temptations?
